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- π πππππππππππ πππππππ ππ πππππππ πππππππππ πππ πππ ππππ, πππππππππ πππ π ππππππ ππ πππππ ππππ πππππ ππππππππ ππππππππππππ.
ππππ ππ πππ one π πππ ππππ πππππ ππ ππππ without effort in explaining my current self.
It might πππππ πππ ππ πππ πΈ’ππ ππππ πππππππ,…
and π ππππ ππ’π ππππππππππ,
πππππππ ππππππππππππππ’ ππ’π πππ exactly ππΈπΆπ·π,…
πππ then again, it’s wayπππ ππππ πππππ WRONG.
πΈπ π’ππ ππππ πππ πππππππππ ππππ ππ ππππ π πππ, you perhaps can grab hold of what I’m trying to explain,
if you grasp that feeling you better understand already than you realize,
You ππππ πππππ’π π ππππ ,..
π πππππππ ππππππ,
definitely not π πππππππππππ πππππππ πππππππππππ’,
πππ πππππ RAW πππ‘ππππ’ either,
but it’s ππ πππππππ it’s almost the same.
πΈπ’π π πππππππ,
π’ππ πππππ-π ππππππ,
filled up with πππππππππ πππ so full,
πππ π ππππ simultaneously somehow ππππππππππ’ πππππ’ πππ ππππ.
πΈπ πππππ,
πππ πππππππ’ πππ ππ ππ ππ πππ π ππ’,
ππππ ππ πππππππ ππππ ππ πππππ,…
Perhaps a πππππππ ππππ that arises as you are brought back in memory to a most wondrous moment, it’s the greatest moment you can remember,
And knowing it’s already happened somehow makes it gut-wrenching
Perhaps because subconsciously you understand you’ll never get to go back there,
to that exact moment again,
It couldn’t ever be so perfect.
It aches like arthritis to the core,…
feels something like a a deep and buried permanent bruise of the bone.
It’s just going to be there,…
It becomes a “normal” feeling in time,
And then you wonder, only now that it’s brought to the light and attention,
Why is that normal?
Is this something everyone experiences or is it just me?
It’s pretty WEIRD that feeling that empty, full, bruised, soothed, aching deep within that accompanies moments of nostalgia or looking back on wonderful irreplaceable moments,….
Yet, tπππ ππππ πππππππππππππππππππ’ ππ π ππ πππ ππππππ’ ππππππππ ππ πππππ’π πππππ ππππ πππππ ππππ ππππ πππππππ ππ π πππ ππ‘ππππ, πππ π πππ’πππ πππππππ, πππ π ππππππ ππππππππ ππππ πππ π ππ πππ πππππ, πππππππ, ππππππ, …. π’ππ ππππ πππ ππ πππππ πππ π’ππ ππππ π πππππ’π ππππ ππ ππ’ ππππ πππ ππππππ,… ππ’π π πππππππππ.